Hi all, quick check-in! - A note of gratitude

My daily blogging endeavors had reached a screeching halt at the end of June, thanks to a power outage that lasted over 12 hours. In a hot Las Vegas summer, that's pretty brutal, and as a result, my daily blogging lowered on my priority list.

(( How fitting, since my last post was about reducing burdens and letting go of what is no longer sustainable. As if it was a send-off. Tarot is funny and cool that way! ))

Ever since then, I haven't quite made it back to this blog. I'm still figuring out how to navigate between "what I want to write" and "what I think others would like to read".

Honestly, life happens and shocking events (both welcome and not-so-welcome ones) help unearth who you truly are, what you truly value, and how aligned you are with those things in your day-to-day life.

I'm still slowly coming to terms with some big personal changes, like my chronic illness and fatigue, seeking diagnoses and solutions, and managing both responsibilities and pleasure with my fluctuating quality of life.

For now, I'm finding great joy in live-streaming again – tarot and intimate chats on TikTok Live and gaming and unwinding on Twitch.tv. My stream schedule is still up in the air, though I try to aim for weekend streams (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday evening Pacific Time).

I'd love to enjoy your company there live, especially since it's my main form of community and socializing since I've been too fatigue/weak to attend regular outings. Even keeping up with messaging and replies has been tiring, but I'm doing my best. Like everyone, there are some good days and some bad ones.

When I get to stream, write a blog post, or connect with like-minded and like-hearted people – (why haven't I heard of like-hearted before?!) – my good days are elevated and my bad days are a touch less hard.

I have always kept some form of gratitude practice, and now when things seem so tentative and uncertain personally and globally, I count my blessings with even more awe and wonder.

Despite or in spite of all the mayhem, there is still so much more life to live. And I intend on savoring each glorious drop of it.

Likely, I'll share my updates on my chronic illness health journey, along with my spiritual practices, creative pursuits, and indulging in my passions in this blog.

In other words – I'm committing to transforming this site as my personal blog instead of a 'service-based' blog. Less attempts at sounding polished and feigning being 'put together' and more real, raw, personal writings.

I consider this as my contribution to make the Internet more intimate like it was in the early days sans big social media, and I hope you may be inspired to have your own personal blog to join the cause.

I still will mention and offer information about my tarot services. Please know any booked readings help fund ongoing healthcare pursuits and directly improve my quality of life. You can even become a paid subscriber to this blog and I'll offer you a monthly tarot reading. If you ever find yourself generously wanting to support, you can leave a tip here.

This Fall, I will be revamping my tarot offerings to reflect my evolutions in my divination and spiritual practice, and I hope they will interest you.

As for my other interests mentioned on this site – I'm still curious on learning more about my ancestral history, especially pre-colonial Philippines culture. Herbal studies are still being dabbled in, too.

However, going slowly in my endeavors is no longer a "nice to have" but a necessity. This confession feels like a failure to the version of me that was constantly praised for her hard-working, quick to learn, can-do attitude.

Accepting health limitations is something that we'll all have to do eventually, I just didn't expect it in this manner. And since all of life is lived in the present, the best way forward is to meet it where it's at.

Thanks for being a part of my journey, a part of my blog, and I look forward to its continued transformation.

Hoping you are well and staying safe. I would love to hear from you either via reply or comment.

Write again soon!

Sincerely,

Nadine ♥