100 days of finding my voice

Day 1: "I'm stuck, I feel blocked, I need to express myself, I don't know how... let's just give this a try."

Day 100: "I'm beginning to remember who I am now. Powerful, capable, and oh so full of life and love. This daily practice has changed everything for me."

Yes, we did it! We've arrived at Day 100/100 of our daily blog challenge!!!

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I admit, I'm writing this after finishing up my tarot TikTok Live stream and while I'm feeling pretty satisfied, I'm also energetically spent. Here is my best go at expressing my gratitude for this milestone.

This daily blog challenge came abruptly, a sort of self-challenge to motivate me to start writing publicly again. My intention was to become acquainted with my voice again and to reconnect with my creativity. It's safe to say, I accomplished that and have gained so much more.

Through each writing session, I've become more acquainted with the terrifyingly powerful being within, which simply put is the True Self. By consistently setting time to explore my inner landscape through writing, the ritual became visiting the core of who I am, the being within who is unfettered by insecurities and anxieties.

By connecting with my core, I was present and available to hear the calling to:

• Begin doodling/drawing again (which can be seen on this blog) — rediscovering play and visual expression
• Return to my daily meditation practice (currently at 19 consecutive days) — finding stillness within the chaos
• Commit to dedicated yoga classes (have upgraded to 4-5 classes per week) — honoring time with my body, remembering its sacredness
• Gain the courage to attempt more cardio/intensive exercise — pushing past comfort zones with compassion
• Revive my TikTok Lives and Twitch streams (streaming 3-4 times a week) — sharing my gifts with confidence again
• Seek more community involvement and reconnecting with friends — choosing connection over isolation

This is just a short list of measurable achievements which I credit to the momentum I received from daily blogging.

Beyond these measurable changes, I've learned to stop apologizing for taking up space. I no longer need to edit myself into invisibility.

The demanding nature of a daily blog meant having to release expectations of "good" writings and art. It meant releasing the perfectionism, self-judgment, the critical self talk – all of those would have to take a back seat.

If I was ever to post, especially daily, then my impossible standards would have to lower – and it became about writing what's real and alive for me. It meant doodling whatever shapes and utilizing whatever colors felt true and right. Sitting to meditate became about observing the quality of my presence and awareness, not optimizing or analyzing myself, just being with myself.

Somewhere along the way of living and getting caught up in conflicts, challenges, and stressful situations, I forgot what it was like to be myself.

Daily blogging helps me remember who I am. What I'm capable of. What I came here to accomplish. What I want to experience and how I want to live.

The question: shall I continue daily blogging? Set a new goal, perhaps? Would it feel enriching and exciting to strive for 365 days of daily blogging? Or would I deeply enjoy the day off to rest and begin writing more thoughtful, longer pieces? Essays, tarot contemplations, memoirs, fiction book writing, poems?

I suppose you'll have to come back tomorrow to find out.

Thanks for being here.

Sincerely,

Nadine of the New Moon ♥